I spent a good portion of my formative years on this blog. I still think about the people I used to communicate with on here. I’ve grown up and moved on, but you still cross my mind now and then: my old allies, my old friends, and my old lovers. This website is a relic of what shaped me into who I am today—even if I’ve lost touch with my old self completely. I’ve been searching everywhere for her. I miss the way she viewed the world, and the way she fell in love with everything contained within it. The thought of loving someone so deeply, intimately, and spiritually was a palpable concept that now eludes me. This blog, quite literally, was my emotional haven. It was my reconnaissance with the reality that not all people are bad, and that fleeting moments of joy can be found in even the most miserable situations. I was miserable then, but it all seems so breathtaking now. I’ve been doing well since giving up this blog, but I have changed tremendously. I hope that anyone who stumbles across this post or this blog is doing well too. I haven’t forgotten about you either.
Cris, 7/2020
